a few weeks ago i was sitting in my car reading, waiting for a meeting to start. i was contemplating whether to be a missionary when i started reading psalm 84. it pretty much sealed the deal. last week i was sitting in my car reading again before going to class (i read in the car a lot). i was feeling overwhelmed about what lies ahead before moving to benin when i read psalm 84 again. it hit the spot. i think i need to memorize this one. here are some parts…
“my soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.” there are times when i’m so hungry for direction from God, i can actually feel it. like my soul could faint. it feels good to know the psalmist has been there too. i’m not alone when my heart cries out to God.
“even as the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself…” even though i’m about to be uprooted, i can trust that God will create a home for me.
“blessed are those whose strength is in You, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.” ding ding ding! this is what i call confirmation. i think God loves our hearts, and mine is a pilgrim heart.
“blessed is the man who trusts in you.” so, i make up my mind in that moment to trust. and i keep making up my mind to trust over and over again. it doesn’t always come naturally, but it does come…
lauren laughs 